Life is only available in the present moment.
It has now been two years since I moved out to the Niagara region and officially removed myself from the Toronto job market, thus effectively retiring. You would think that by now I would have adjusted to this new life of leisure but that unfortunately is not the case. The reality is that I still continue to struggle to come to terms with what not working means. Oh I do keep busy but that has not stopped me from feeling like something was missing from my life. Today my yoga instructor said something that really resonated with me. She said that sometimes we struggle with a pose and it becomes particularly uncomfortable. This arises when we fight the limitations of our body at a particular point in time, rather than accept what we are capable of in the here and now. Accept what is happening in the moment and it ceases to be a struggle. It starting me thinking about “struggles” in the broader context of my life and how this applies beyond my physical body. What do I need to do to accept myself and my situation, so I am not continually fighting against it? I need to be more mindful of where I am at each moment in time. Life exists in the here and now and I need to do a better job of experiencing that moment. The never ending thoughts cycling through my mind of “what is next” or “is this all there is” has to stop or I will never be at peace. So I have committed to try to live that way…Will keep you posted!